Self love

Last night i had to go through my book shelf found magazines

Flippin through the magazines

Page after page of glossy perfection

Perfect shots with perfect aims

Brighter eyes

Prettier faces caked with tonnes of makeup

Fuller lips with expensive lipstick.

Soft skin and I mean so soft with no flake of hair… No hair at all

Slinky waists, thinner, taller bodies,

Did I forget the luscious curves and graceful breasts.?. Well no.

Sleek hair…

Well, looks like these magazines are making fun of me in broad daylight,.

Look at me

Kinky hair,

No curves at all

Tiny breast, peanuts.

*blush

Yeah, reason I never had a boyfriend,. I’m gonna die alone… *giggles*

Who cares as long as I love my body and myself I’m okay.

Fuck the world with their opinion.

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Deep down.

Our minds are silent with chaos,

Our eyes are calm with downpours,

Our bodies are composed but deep down a volcano ready to erupt and shake us,

But do we say?

Do we speak out?

Do we confide in anybody?

Do we trust even ourselves?

No.

We rather die in silence slowly than be labelled attention seekers,

We rather keep it cool than be called egoistic,

Why does human have to become so inhuman?

He has evolved to a more vicious self.

We rather hold our heads high, smile and move on, only to later break down when alone,

We become lonely, depressed, suicidal

We have closed our doors and opened our windows

For just a breeze to make it’s way through,

Than for a person to walk in on us

We inflict pain on ourselves,

Hoping we may feel better,

But the pain won’t go away

We want to seek help but we lose our will immediately,

We want to be set free,

We close our eyes and shut ourselves,

We need help,

Instead of labels we need help,

We need love,

We want to be told, it’s gonna be okay,

That it’s just a phase,

That everything will make perfect sense,

That we are worthy,

Worthy of every breath we take,

Worthy of every second we live,

That we are precious,

That we are loved,

It’s all we need, love, care, understanding.

Love.

Broken stupid sad boy.

The spark in your eyes when you see him,

The glow in your skin when you’re around him,

The smile that spreads on your lips,

Screams love,

You can’t wait to whisper love to his ears, draw love patterns on his skin,

Just to touch him,

But does he feel the same??

He is always out on business,

He is drunk when you call to wish him success in business meetings,

He never checks on you,

I guess you are hopelessly in love,

You have destroyed your walls for him to enter,

He is too dump to see it,

That boy keeps you waiting for him,

Patience, patience,patience

Patience is not your thing,

He will come around, you console yourself,

That day,you will be seated across the table,

And watch those words fall from your mouth like a slippery glass,

That shatters to pieces as it hits the ground,

With nobody to fix it, or even pick up the pieces,

He will grow silent like a stone,

Immersed in thoughts, maybe,

Not wanting you to decrease him to reality,

This boy never loved you at all

He never did,

He is just another sad broken, stupid boy.

Don’t kill yourself.

Not yet.

My mama used to tell me, don’t become somebody’s wife before you do.

Poem by Sheilah.

Funny??? Right?? But true

You wake up, do breakfast, dishes, clothes, shoes, make the bed, iron his clothes,

You’re just a maid to him. Are you his mother? Are you his wife?

Why mother a bearded man?

Why are you afraid to be labelled a feminist, because we’re all equal?

He fucks you whenever he wants to all in the name of love.

I don’t know what kind of math is this, signing your death sentence, just an inch away from your salvation,

We are thought to reason, but the heart is tough headed, making the mind stagnate,

I don’t know the kind of teachings we give our girls, ‘respect a man’,

This boy is gonna find a better wife while you’re still doing his dishes,

The shock, confusion, embarrassment, will hit you hard,

‘I was with him through thick and thin’is gonna be your new favourite slogan,

But he won’t be there to wipe your tears or comfort you.

Stop being a wife, at least not yet.

And run,

Stay woke

Black tears

Black tears, eyes blurred by thick black soot just from the fireplace,

I cry black tears and I can no longer hold them back,

Tears that destroy, tears that burn the skin to nothing,

Leaving it begging and anticipating for remedy

I cry black tears so you can see how far your damage has gone,

You destroyed me, a once exquisite habitat reduced to a huge garbage lot,

Papers choke me, and take away my breath, slowly pushing me to the grave

Smog blurs my vision, I can’t see a future,

I can’t see at all,

Why are you so ungrateful ?

Tell me how am I gonna make it by myself?

I feel rejected, depressed, lonely all together

I’m almost giving up,

I’m at the brink of extinction,

I’m standing on the edge, not sure whether to hold on or just fall into the dark abyss..

Now that I’m crying but your steel hearts are adamant to listen,

I crave for your attention, hoping that one day you will care

But it’s the same old heart, that can never be shaken,

Change in weather patterns, extreme weather events, rise in sea level, massive wildfires, global warming,

This is me crying for help,

When the damage can still be reversed,

Black tears.

Why mother nature.

What is environment?

Many people tend to misunderstand or rather ignore the topic concerning the environment. Well the environment generally is our surroundings. It encompasses nature, water, air, soil, wildlife.

The environment plays a major role to human survival. By providing air, water, food that is all essential to man. It’s always part if us and we must conserve it at all costs for maximum benefit. Only a few people stand up for the environment. For instance nature is always my best part if the environment. Imagine taking beautiful pictures with a very beautiful nature behind it. It’s so satisfying. It’s every persons responsibility to conserve it by changing the ways we use some of out household items. And also by understanding the why, how and when question. It’s now… It’s a step to make the environment a better place. If you have watched Planet II, you will agree with me that it’s very crucial to make it better day by day.

In this era, man has always had the focus on money making schemes ignoring it’s impact on the environment. Most of them have major impact on our environment. But very few people actually care. Reason why we’ve seen our environment deteriorating day by day with extreme weather patterns, rise in sea level,massive wildfires, weather extremes such as hurricanes among others. The prime suspect being you and me. It’s always about how we view the environment, how we know it and how we take it. Knowledge has to be passed from generation to generation in order to foster that culture of conserving our mother nature and taking care of it. It’s from this that we get to have a future generation geared to healing what other generations have done.

I love mother nature. But it is crying to be heard. It only takes one step to a better future for it. And trust me it is rewarding.